Thursday, July 21, 2011

Does this make me a weak person?

Well mates, I have been feeling this way for awhile and I just dont know what to do at this point. Long story short, I was in the Army and going through BCT, but at the start of AIT I was injuried in a freak training accident, which in short meant that I couldn't finish my training and I was forced to take an honarable discharge. SInce I been back, I have tried to move on with my life, but I couldn't shake the feeling that I let all of my friends and comrades down, and it is something that I have tried to get over, but I havent had much success. However, when I left the Army, I opted to go for an ELS discharge so that I can try to get back in later and start from scratch, and though I'm now pretty much healed up and planning on getting my Medical Clearence this June, I'm still having these feelings that I'm a failure and that I don't deserve to be in the military for I'm already a "Wash Out" in my eyes, and also that many people thank me for my service where I did nothing but get hurt in a training accident, and it makes me feel even worse since I don't deserve any of there thanks. Is there something wrong with me or is it just something that I need to learn to let go?

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